(:

2012-02-14T14:10:00.002+08:00

Searching for a deeper meaning in life.

Slogging in a job just for the money earned.

Spending money just to make yourself happy for a while.

& the cycle goes on..

This is not what I want.

& it does not make me happy afterall.

2012-01-25T16:46:00.004+08:00

Happy CNY everyone!

CNY in malaysia this year was much better!

Gambled the whole time.

& eat and sleep. :P

I haven't thought of my goals this year.

no new year resolution yet.

Hoping for a much better year.

With things going smooth for me.

No more feelings of inferiority.

I'm sick and tired of them.

I need to get more confidence.

thus, I need a CHANGE!

Save more money for trips.

Find a healthier hobby but not shopping.

2011-11-29T19:12:00.000+08:00

I need some anti-depressant drugs.
FML.

2011-09-13T17:21:00.002+08:00

dieting and saving money in progress until 9 october.

& i'm constantly on a self battle.

with online blogshops so readily available (i saw so many things that i wanna buy!)

& good food all around me.

i need to push them all away. :((

Telling a spender that you can't spend.

Telling a greedy food lover that you can't eat.

Telling a cabber that you can't cab.

That's me. :\

What a sad life for now.

sigh...

2011-08-19T22:49:00.001+08:00

how much more boring and unfulfilling can life get.

aimlessly living.
i feel like i'm living just for the sake of living.

2011-08-16T14:19:00.003+08:00

Pondering about my future.

What am i going to do next.

I have been trying to escape reality. throw away those thoughts and emotions.

& let myself indulge in unmeaningful time wasting activities everyday for months.

eventually, i know this is not what i want.

my life now has been the exact opposite of what I expect of my future i see.

-unfulfilling and boring job that i have (i have no idea why i'm here).

-sucky pay

-boring life

-unconfident

In conclusion, i hate myself and my life.

whenever i look into the mirror,

i always question "what have you done to yourself to come to this state?"

I have never thought i will be lost.

Because i always thought i knew what i wanted.

but, it was to this point when i came to realise that,

the path was not what i chose.

But it was something that i chose to believe that i will excel in it because people told me.

that was why i'm here.

i wasn't here because of my passion or desire.

21 marks the start of adulthood.

it means maturity and making right and responsible choices.

it means working to achieving my goals

and not just dreaming and pushing things to a later date.

i do not want regret to follow me once again.

Since i can't study now til next Aug, i shall make use of this good one year to achieve something.

I haven't figure exactly what is it.

But, i guess i should start planning.

2011-08-07T23:38:00.001+08:00

glad to have you in my life. (:
grateful for your love and dotings.

i love you. :D

2011-07-12T00:11:00.003+08:00

what's wrong with me? Why am I always crying recently?
Tap a little more into my thoughts or emotions and I find myself crying.

When Reena says everything's gonna be alright.
My tears just fall uncontrollably.

I find myself in a maze.
I can't find the way out.
I'm lost and confused.

At this point of time, I think of my friends and loved ones.
But where do I see them?

Or I just don't want to tear in the middle of a conversation.

I don't find the kind of comfort and advice that I need.
I can't find the solutions and answers.
Until someone suitable turns up.
& my tears fall like never ending.

I don't like my emotions to affect people around me.
But I find myself feeling worse each time.
It just gets deeper and deeper.
I don't know how to save myself anymore.

What can I say?
Beneath that smile, there is so much more to it.
Only when I smile, it makes me feel temporary happy.

Sometimes, it really occur to me that I should see a psychologist.
To find the root of all problems.
Tell me what is wrong with me!

2011-06-29T16:29:00.002+08:00

After much considerations, spending so much time researching,
i'm much more clearer of my goals now.
i'm sure i want to do that!

& i'm all geared up to accomplished them.

Looking forward to the near future. good luck!

Hope i will succeed in these aspects! :DD

2011-06-22T22:40:00.005+08:00

3 things to accomplish this year.

-Blogshop to be established.
-Get good grades to be able to do honours.
-Lose enough weight. (currently still obediently on the 2 shake, 1 fish soup diet daily. hope to persevere for at least 3 months! :D )

I'm still deciding whether i should join Amore.
2 questions to ask myself.
-whether i will go?
-whether i will even have the time to go after i start school?

In my busy week after starting school,
3-4 days of school, 5 days of work.
& still need to find time for blogshop,
weekends to meet bf.
needs studying time to revise.
where is the time to go?! LOL.
But i really think i need to exercise leh. (too unhealthy)

My schedule is sooo packed with no rest days.
I foresee how tired out i will be.
So scary! :(

2011-06-20T15:42:00.002+08:00

recently, i have been so tensed up.
because of studies, money, work and blogshop issues.

that i keep having headaches recently.

My mind can never stop thinking of "what to do", "how ah" etc.
The only time i can stop thinking is when i'm sleeping.
sometimes, i can even dream of these issues. =.=""

I need to find a way to release my stress and unhappiness. :'(

If i even spent 30 secs to be emotional,
tears will be brimming in my eyes.

i'm just so unhappy and upset! :(

wo hen fan! :(((

2011-06-14T13:12:00.004+08:00

i shall make use of this opportunity to start dieting.
Since i lose my appetite recently.

No appetite for food seems great now. (Y)

say bye bye to fats.

2011-06-11T14:56:00.003+08:00

why do i feel so weird?!?!
as if something is missing.

dislike the feeling.
& i don't understand why am i feeling that way. :(

think too much.
shen jing bing!

Will be more busy
Blogshop issues to be accomplished by next week.

Decided to go study instead of wasting time.

2011-05-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

too FAT! :'(

SUPER DEPRESSED.

I MUST DIET TMR. :(

2011-04-24T00:23:00.002+08:00

There always come to a point after awhile when i will be so irritated and frustrated with things, with life, with myself.

today, its the day again.
ahhhhh!

我觉得很烦!

i need to vent out my stress, my unhappiness and my helplessness.

the feelings that i'm hiding inside.
that i never ever told anyone.

the things i'm relunctant to do.
i'm very very very relunctant to have to apply for overseas universities.
because i do not like to start all over again alone in a foreign place.
i just don't want to go. private institutions sucks!
but i know i have to study to get the kind of pay i want.
aiya! annoying shit.

I WISH I'M JUST VERY VERY VERY RICH.
SO I DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!
i just have to sit at home everyday and think of how to spend my money.
FML!

2011-03-20T00:27:00.002+08:00

我说过不再哭了。
为什么还是哭了？

过去已经过去。
我需要忘记从前我有多快乐。
我更需要忘了我有多舍不得。
心碎的感觉，我会忘。

我想让这份爱和遗憾永远消失。

2011-02-13T23:47:00.002+08:00

what kind of seeds do you need to sow today, so tomorrow turns into the dream you have always wanted?

to continue to lose more weight!
i hate being fat!!!
sometimes, i wish i can just go for liposuction and suck all my fats out!
have been taking a 2 weeks break from my diet due to CNY.
now, its time to be back on diet. ((:

3L of water and 1L of shake?
then, i dont even need to think of what i want to eat everyday. so troublesome.

i just need that confidence back. :'((

2011-02-08T22:56:00.002+08:00

原来我一直以来我不开心。
我好像很久很久没有真心地笑过。

所以一直在努力地寻找可以让我变得开心的东西。
到底是什么？

人生到底是为了什么？

2011-01-16T00:10:00.002+08:00

i've got a bad dream last night.
abt my 21st birthday.
& it kind of affects my mood when i wake up.

now i know why my temper become so bad.
& i hate to know the reason.

because it tells me that i'm was never happy.
but pretending to.
that's why i never like love songs anymore.
they make me remember things i can't forget.

i hate resentments.

the more you resent, the more you will have to resent;
you grow a resentment track in your brain.
your expression will be a habitual one of resentment.

2011-01-14T22:52:00.002+08:00

i went to read the book 'Men are from mars and woman are from venus'
actually i encourage people to read the book,
when you feel you dont really understand why you are feeling this way either.

i especially like the 90/10 principle.
i understand why small things can make me so upset.
because my old wounds didn't get a chance to heal.
so when something in the present happens that provokes the past.
i become so upset.

but, how do i make them heal?
when i resent it so much.
the thought of it hurts me so much.
i don't know how.

2011-01-08T23:07:00.002+08:00

i decided to write a RESOLUTION for the NEW YEAR.
so that i will have a direction in what i want to fulfill this year.
and not live each day aimlessly.

REFLECTION of 2010

not quite a nice year with all the horrible FYP!
& some sickening people i have encountered.
have so much upset encounters with school, work and home.
Emo-ing and crying through some of the months.
most importantly, this year was not fulfilling at all.
i didn't seem to accomplish anything but wasting too much time.

so, RESOLUTION for 2011

first thing, even though there's little i can do for my GPA anymore,
i will still tried very best to pull my GPA up just a little bit more.
& i pray hard that i can get into NUS where my excitement begins.
& finally GRADUATION from RP! ^^

secondly, this year i'm turning 21! omggg!
& all my life, i have been trying to lose weight and i always still break my own rules.
and pushing it until i'm 21.
so, this year is the year!
i want to get away from UGLINESS by the age of 21. :SSS

thirdly, to work more instead of slacking and wasting time.
i need to earn more money.
so that i can buy more things when i go to europe this year. ((:
and not relying on my dear daddy.
looking forward to getting 3 of my wish items done there!

Lastly, to save some money to go overseas with friends!
cab less! spend money wisely.

January has been a good start.
hoping for a GOOD YEAR AHEAD!

HAPPY NEW YEAR. :DD

2010-12-26T15:14:00.003+08:00

i need to lose weight. i need to lose weight. i need to lose weight.
i need to lose weight. i need to lose weight. i need to lose weight.
i need to lose weight. i need to lose weight. i need to lose weight.
ahhhhhh! save me from ugliness! =((

diet starts again tmr. =\

2010-12-07T23:48:00.004+08:00

finally my birthday has come and its gonna be over in 10 mins.

something special was a one night stay at amara sanctuary resort at sentosa yesterday.
quite a nice place.
& the mini cake surprise by the 3 of them.
& drinking at the bar nearby.

had dinner at ippudo with yiling and jolene.
& dessert at canele.
had a good time with them (:

birthday week was kinda disappointing.
most of the plans are changed or postponed to next next week. =\
activities as usual.
eat and shop.

some people just don't understand the definition of sincerity.
不要敷衍我。

well,
let's hope for a much better one next year. <3

i hate the da yi ma coming period.
sucks!
stupid water retention that make me look like a swollen ball.
fat and ugly. :S

2010-12-02T00:55:00.002+08:00

i never talk because you never listen.

i don't give because you never gave.

understanding. trust. actions. change. thoughts.
i don't see anything.

2010-12-02T00:47:00.002+08:00

the cycle of being unsatisfied about our lives seems to be never ending

if you have something, you will be unsatisfied that you lack something.
we seems to be constantly be wanting more things.
which makes life more unpleasant than pleasant.
we are more easily sad than happy.

sometimes, i wonder.
is it that we demand too much?
or,
the world makes it that way?

2010-10-26T20:12:00.003+08:00

我今年肯定是犯小人！

seriously hor, i never encounter this kind of thing before.

FYP, after combining teams, the stupid indians like to anyhow accuse people.
ownself don't want to teach us how to do their work and say is we dont want to learn in front of the faci. & the stupid indian faci is bias towards them one lor!

Next, work. Metro got alot of "SPIES" who like to tell on you in order to be able to BOOTLICK the managers. for example, if i bring water in, or i'm late in the morning (not like i very late leh! 5-10 mins only!) in any case, as long as they got something to say, they will go say lah. & i alrdy kena 2 times liaos!

Next, even more ridiculous one. Now my neighbourhood also got liaos. Got dunno which auntie go tell my mum, i see her never call her. Or i see her when taking the lift but i purposely press door close. WTF?! i can swear i never ever did that before lor. furthermore, neighbourhood got so many people. the people my mum know means i have to know too?! =.=" if i never see you before, i also need to call you ah?! then might as well, i go around the whole neighbourhood calling people uncle and auntie! or when i taking lift need to look 1 metre ahead see got anybody walking to take the lift?! or i give you a call to ask you want to take lift not?! =.=""""

i really cannot stand it leh! all these people making me frustrated every fucking day!
go school, go work or even GO HOME also got such people.
how do you expect me to have a good mood everyday?!

Everything just seem WRONG!
Nothing is in my favour now.
FML!

for 20 years of my life, this is the year, i have been angry for the most number of times.
my patience has already reach the limit.
if you realise, i never scold in the past.

i think i just need some quiet moments.
i hate concealing my emotions, my thoughts.
even thou i'm very angry or sad, i have to act as thou i'm fine.
having to fake a smile, pretending that i'm very happy.
to lie to myself that i am.

if only somebody could understand.
depressed.

2010-10-22T15:24:00.002+08:00

AHHHH! i just can't stand it.
i hate FYP to the core.
because it makes me so irritated, upset and whatever.
fuck FYP.

i hate having the combined team. I DON'T LIKE!

can time pass even faster to 11 december!

i feel so frustrated now! :((((((((((((

2010-10-21T19:13:00.003+08:00

i think i need a new life.
like a new interesting thing to happen.
i'm getting so sick and tired of things and life.
work or school. how much more boring can it get.
money does not make me happy now.
even if i earn alot alot of money.
or i can buy a lot of branded.
it doesnt make me happier.
i need a new love now. =\

there is so much things inside me that i can't explain.
i just feel that everything is so wrong.
but how can i correct it?
i can't think of a solution.
& that explains why my temper becomes so bad now. :(

2010-10-14T00:29:00.005+08:00

school finally started.
so i dont have to go CGH anymoreeeee! :D
but working everyday is so boring.
& to make things worse.
i'm at sengkang.
no sales. =\

today i got to know this girl.
she's quite fat.
but, she really have the confidence in her.
which i dont understand why.
there's so much fat people who can be so proud of themselves.
i guess i will never be able to do that.
a tweeny weeny bit of fats make me feel so zi bei about myself alrdy.
i wonder what gives them the confidence.
i wish i can be like them sometimes.
but i guess if i have that confidence, i will never ever think of losing weight.
so its kinda contradicting. lol.

i always feel better when i talk to reena.
when i saw my grade, i'm just so sad.
i never ever got such a grade before.
because of the sickening FYP!
i saw my goal of going into NUS getting lesser and lesser possible.

but she makes me encouraged once again.

to try to strive for the impossible.

& i'm back to normal now. (:

i'm hungry and tired now.

but i shall go to bed so i wont eat.

jian fei-ing in progress.

so good night!

2010-09-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

soon, holidays is going to be over.
i kinda look forward to it.
& finally, 4 more days before i bid CGH goodbye. (:
one more sem to graduation! omgggg. how fast. but i like! :D
i hate RP's stupid PBL system.
i super wish to go uni. hahahaha.
althou i will fall asleep in lectures as usual.
but at least no PBL! :S

the past week has been busy but good (:
met kaili like finally. :D
spent 300 bucks on shopping.
cabbed like its free everyday. spent on food, food, food.
i had quite a good life recently.
but still i wish to have more more money. (:
& earned 700 bucks in 3 days during the 20% metro sales. how nice. super duper elated. :D

i'm on my way to 45 kg by dec.
will work even harder from tomorrow onwards.
try no eating for the last month of dieting.
yes! i can do it!
i will achieve my goal. (:

2010-09-11T23:16:00.003+08:00

somehow, somewhere, you are still there.
even thou, so tiny, it just bothers me sometimes.

i know i can never ever let it go.
i just can't believe this is reality.
the most unbelievable turn out to be true.

but i promise to never ever think about it anymore.
the past will turn into dust.
i will make the present, the future, a happy one.

我一定要比你更幸福.

2010-09-05T21:58:00.004+08:00

recently, my mood has been like a roller coaster.
even me myself thinks that i have a very serious attitude problem thesedays. lol.
if i meet some irritating customer, my face expression changes almost immediately.
& if somebody does something that i don't like, i'm irritated alrdy.

seriously, i don't know what is wrong with me.
& poor enning always get reprimanded by me. lol.
sorry.

i always see the lies in between.

the pretence, and the selfishness behind each other.

the heartless-ness of humans.

the kind of ending they get when they trust someone.

i guess,
在我心里，已经看不到爱了。

sometimes, i feel like an abandoned child.

i need to find the courage to face life's challenges again.
i need to believe that love still exist.
only then, i can become what i used to be.

i will be okay.
& i will definitely find my way out.

2010-08-29T22:11:00.003+08:00

i just feel so frustrated and unhappy.

i don't know what's the value of living here aimlessly.
my ambitions, my goals. i don't know where have they gone to.
i used to be so full of energy and confidence.
i believe so strongly in achieving in life.

yet now,
i feel like a failure.
i never seem to do things right.
i never seem to win.
i start to doubt myself in everything.
i feel like escaping.

when i start to escape from reality,
i start closing up myself.
i stopped communicating.
i start doing more things, the wrong way.
that leads to further frustration.

i don't know where am i heading.

people just don't understand.
how bad it is to feel, you want to give up on yourself.
i wish i can cry all night to make me feel better.
to get rid of the negative things that's always bothering me forever.
but, i just can't do it.

i don't know what is there ahead of me that's gonna change me.
just one more time.
i need a change.
a complete change.
but this time, give me a good one.

if i cry,
i don't need you to talk. because it always make things worse.
i just need you to give me a big hug and tell me it's gonna be okay.

2010-08-27T23:27:00.002+08:00

i wish i can not work.
but have alot alot alot of money. =(

hate spending all my time working working working.
or going to CGH. this is so annoying.
next month is another month where i have less than 5 days of off days.
i have no time to go out nor rest.
how long have i not seen my friends.

i'm just getting more and more sick of work.
argh!

2010-08-10T17:04:00.007+08:00

i wanna go shoppingggg! =(

i need new cosmetics.
brushes of all kinds.
new blushes.
bronzers
eye shadows
concealer (bobbi brown should be good?)
make up base
loose powder
foundation
all thanks to zelia,
i'm so in love with nude lipsticks & lipglosses. <3 ! i'm going to check it out at bobbi brown and MAC! (:

may october come quickly! bangkok trippp! (:

2010-08-08T12:33:00.002+08:00

life has been a routine thesedays
school or work.
holidays? CGH or work. =(
no more partying. cause its getting more and more boring.
i miss those good old times where we all gathered to go clubbing.

my memory getting worse and worse.
and so is anemia.
its all because of lack of nutrition.
because all my fav food are low in nutrition value but high in carbo, sadly.
so it explains why i'm growing in size but declining in brain function. :(

work has been alright.
with acceptable pay. higher than the previous one.
rules not strict. easier to sell.
we have more people of the same age here.
althou we also have some irritating ones or some 'kids' ard too.
& i dont really like to work in metro.

grades has been declining because i'm getting more and more sick of school. but i still hope i'm able to go into NUS. haha.
can't wait for next sem to come! 1 day of school woohoo! <3

learning to appreciate every little thing around me.
the more people you get to know, the more you will see.
you are fortunate.

2010-05-19T23:56:00.002+08:00

也许疯狂的我是为了掩饰我的不快乐

i have to learn to deal with people who've got so much things to say.
with people who loves to wear a mask,

not more resentment.

which change me to somebody i dont even know.

2010-04-29T00:54:00.003+08:00

schoolwork has been relatively good!
AT LEAST for the past 2 weeks of school.
As for daily grades. except proteomics.
i got to work harder for it!
i see some light for my GPA of 4 this sem with my momentum. (:

i thank all the people who BOTHERED to care.
to accompany me through my boring hours at work (where i have so much room for thinking)
& to ask & listened today. (:
you all have made me feel so much better.
at least someone understands.
& not aggravate the situation and make it WORSE!

<3

actions speak louder than words.
there is no point saying all the nice things.
but not doing a single shit out of it.
if you don't bother, its okay for me too.
but make sure the words dont come from you.

2010-04-27T15:37:00.002+08:00

HAHA. my blog is dead. for very long. LOL.

school started like 2 weeks ago.
& my class is much better this sem. i like! (:
i only dislike ppl who don't do work.
& make my grades suffer with them too! nb.

i have been quite unhappy thesedays.
this year have been a damn suay year can.
everything is bad bad bad. )):
i don't like to feel stupid or incompetent.
i don't like to be controlled.
hais. irritating.

sometimes, it just depresses me so much.
but people just don't understand.

working non-stop. (they call me to work in my off days too)
with FYP to do too.
i'm so busy. =\

2010-04-01T13:27:00.005+08:00

powerhouse last night.
not a fun night. ):
felt lousy for the night too.

drank jugs of vodka. flaming lambo.
& i don't feel okay.
headache. gastric churning. feel like vomiting.
i hate my lousy body for always spoiling my mood.
gastric, gastric can you please stop giving me problems.

time for new shoes too. (:

sometimes, i think if its really a problem in my ability

am i that useless?

or its just the system that don't work.

there are alot of questions in my head.
i can find no answers to.
i really wonder.
i can't speak, i can't ask.

2010-03-28T19:57:00.005+08:00

busy week.
FYP & FYP.
totally hate it.

The supervisor sucks to the core.
roarrrr!
every time i have to go to CGH to see his fucking face, make me feel sick.
i can't imagine having to see his face until october.

how much more insulting can he get?!
donkeys? dumb? worse than an animal?
bloody hell.
i rather get sack and repeat FYP lor.
he's such a bloody fucker.

keep praising his fucking india and insulting singapore.
then why he choose to work here?!
go back to his india lah! kns.
contradicting freak.

nevermind. talk about happy things instead. (:
last wed was a super fab day! HEHE.
went shopping! woohoo.
i literally shopped like mad.
after sooooo long.
400 bucks gone in a few hours.
but i'm very happy. wahahaha.
& darling's paying half of my expenses for me. =D
that's very nice. hehe.

total expenses for march : more than 1k.
i don't know what i spend. LOL.
food? cab?
no savings this mth. )):

2010-03-23T13:55:00.005+08:00

FYP sucks.
i thought it will be quite interesting.
but it turns out to be total boredom and sucky.

Advisor away.
& co. supervisor turns out to be a unfriendly and arrogant freak.
kns.

everytime i go to CGH, it will definitely have a scolding session held for us.
i dunno is i suay or what. =.=
everything is OUR fault.
going there seems like a waste of time.
sitting around waiting & waiting.
doing something the whole day when it can apparently be finished in a few hours time.
roarrrr!
i can't wait for it to finish.
shall 2011 come soon.
& let us all graduate. ):

i can't wait to meet darlings.
& friends i havent catch up for a long time! =\
please meet up soon!

cycling at east coast! i'm so looking forward to it.
steamboat and games. wahahaha. =DD

holdiays seems to be ending soon.
15 april please dont come. =\

2010-03-16T11:07:00.005+08:00

wanqing has to be forgiving.
don't appear on my mind.
or i will go wonderland.
forget.forget.forget! =(

no hatred, no dislike.
for i only have myself to blame.
just plain disappointment.
when everything you believe just collapsed.
reducing to zero, turning to dust.
it's just so difficult to forget.
i'm trying.

but feelings of distrust will stay on.
how do you ever make it go away?

may god bless me for my recruitments today. (:

2010-03-14T20:30:00.004+08:00

somebody says,
if they don't love you enough, let them go.

2010-03-13T21:30:00.003+08:00

my frequency to hospitals has been increasing.
having to go changi hospital for FYP twice per week.
& NUH to visit my uncle who has gotten a stroke recently.

How can life be so fragile.
so many people in my family is sick with all kinds of diseases.
stroke, cancer....
that is very sad.

it kinds of scares me thou.
i never want it to happen to my parents too.
like a lesson learnt to really take care of my parents.
to give my parents all kinds of products to keep them healthy.
even thou it's very costly on me.

for once, i understood Mark Hughes' dream.
instead of only my own desire which is to have more money.

yes. so let's work harder now. =\

2010-03-01T17:42:00.005+08:00

liang enning told me abt somebody who went to club.
& got infected with HIV.

& the phrase 'welcome to the world of AIDS' left behind by the girl.
keep ringing in my head.
that is so freaking scary.

how can somebody be so evil to destroy someone's life like that.
it's like being condemned forever when you are infected . =\\\\
& what if the cycle of revenge is going to continue.
goodness!

clubbing is a dangerous place man.
better be utmost careful when going to club. =\\

shall club less too. (:
haha.

& somebody can keep his POT! HEHEHE! =P

2010-02-28T01:58:00.002+08:00

disappointments.
& disappointments.

excuses & whatever.
just admit you don't care.

i like honesty more than 10000000 of excuses.
which is rubbish.

tired.

2010-02-21T01:32:00.002+08:00

HAHA. i decided to join laneige.
2nd day of work today there.
the people there were awesome.
& i simply fell in love with their products.
it was fab!

& the best thing is its not very expensive!
affordable.
hahaha.
must try must try! ((:

2010-02-09T19:09:00.004+08:00

thinking of switching jobs.
there's too much job options to choose from.
ranging from dior, lancome, chanel, clarins. & laneige.
these are the various brands that i'm kind of interested in.
& they all happen to be hiring. lol.

yes! 2 more UTs to go!
& it's holidayyyyy! woohoo.
i think i haven't been meeting my dear friends for a long long time.
& its time to see them again! ((:

& perhaps she's right.
maybe you really should do it.
you deserve something much better than me.

kind of sad abt it.
but its okay. (:
just take it as it is meant to be.

2010-02-06T18:14:00.002+08:00

shall blog awhile. before i get back to serious business. to study!

first thing, i nearly missed UT today.
because i was late for 20 mins.
all thanks to my stupid decision to take cab from amk.
i was so freaking scared that i suddenly tear while talking on the phone.
when i arrived in school, the facilitator told me i can't take the UT already.
because i'm off 15 mins already.
i suddenly felt so helpless. but very desperately.
i asked to take paper instead.
with a very very desperate look of mine
he brought me into the class and let me do the UT with my laptop.
luckily. i was so glad i persisted to take the UT. instead of just walking away.
i was so relieved at that moment.

& i managed to finish the paper despite only having 40 mins.
it was good that i always have the habit of making myself not spend more than 1 min on 1 mark. (:

thank god. =\

wanqing feels loved today.
thanks to all those who encouraged her. (:

i know i definitely missed one A.
but i'm not going to miss the rest.
so off i go to study. bye bye. (:

2010-02-04T11:59:00.001+08:00

i dunno why my phobia is so strong.
that it keeps me from going to work. =\

please let my phobia be gone.
or else i will never be back again. )):

2010-02-04T10:21:00.002+08:00

LOL. realise a trend in my blog posts.
if i'm very happy i don't blog.
i only blog when i have problems or when i'm thinking about something.
so some people think that i'm very sad about my life.

but actually i'm not. don't worry.
i have been good.
just that everyone has their own problems.
isn't it? haha. (((:

2010-02-03T11:21:00.005+08:00

needs inspiration!
needs plentiful of wisdom & courage!
to tell me where to go next.
what will be the ultimate best solution for me. (:

somehow i just don't know where am i heading now.
but just keep going until i find it once again.

i've seen miracles happened.
throw in plenty of faith and just do it.
chant. (:

2010-02-02T10:29:00.002+08:00

it's funny how we feel so much, but we can't say a word.

the feeling is so indescribable.

2010-02-01T22:49:00.003+08:00

okay. i decided to re-open my blog. (:
wanted to close it for some reasons.

was just very irritated with some things and some people. =\

but nevermind. i shall not think about it.
IGNORE!

CNY is around the corner! woohoo!
ANG BAO ANG BAO! =DD
who is going to give me a thick $500 angbao this year again?? HEHEHE!
ya. FAT HOPE! good things never happen twice. lol.

all my BIG angbao(s) are reducing already. )):
let's go home visiting! haha!

haven't buy new year clothes yet!
going to buy soon! (:

2010-01-29T17:12:00.004+08:00

here comes the whole thing about being superficial and realistic again.
vanity and comparison.

insensitivity and childishness.

& you are telling me, this is the reason for everything.
which i cannot readily accept and
i cannot understand.

so i have to feel sorry that i'm not?
i got to take things in my stride.
because i'm not.
every other thing is just bullshit.
just plainly you don't deserve anything just because you are not.

tell me how and why is this so.

2010-01-29T11:57:00.006+08:00

Many of us waste time on petty worries or frivolities, but those who know the value of how limited time is seem to cherish every moment they have as a gift.

2010-01-27T18:18:00.007+08:00

my faith is weakened.
my passion is gone.
how can i carry on?

there seems to always be a point in time when we start to feel tired and sick of working so hard.
all we want is just to lead a simple life.
but having this thought, it kills my dream somehow.

i hate to feel i don't know what i want.
i don't like to be direction-less. ):

have been eating supper lately.
which is very saddening. lol.
but i dunno i keep feeling hungry. ):

i thought of one WHY now.
i want to be rich.
don't have to be filthy rich.
but just enough for me to spend and help others in times of need.

i still remember my lame childhood dream,
to be able to give those poor people $ freely.
as in literally give like any amount also can. not a few bucks. LOL.

okay. i still got 9 more to go.

"Where the heart is willing, it will find a thousand ways. Where it is unwilling, it will find a thousand excuses."

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

2010-01-26T10:30:00.002+08:00

i walked to school today. no cab! wahahaha.
& i'm not late! ((:
very happy! lol.

on the way, i suddenly thought of you.
like so randomly.

i want to attend more soka meetings.
it always makes me become stronger inside.
loved the people there too.
they are really a bunch of very sincere people.
where you feel the concern that comes right from the bottom of their hearts.
i never felt inferior in front of them.
i never restrict myself from voicing out my thoughts.
because they always make me feel better.

when you are very strong mentally,
you know how to bring happiness to people.
you know how to help them lessen their burden.
& that's what i really want. (:

2010-01-25T23:51:00.003+08:00

weekends has been fab!
hahaha.
attended spectacular on friday and saturday.
it was good! fun!
went clubbing on saturday night.
saw terence & co. & fitri. haha.
it was a good good night. (:

everytime when i feel down.
i'm reminded of what su yi say to me.
'you don't have to envy what others have that you don't. because your good fortune will come'
btw, the good fortune here does not necessarily mean in terms of money.

yes! i will be positive! hahaha.

i'm pondering about continuing in herbalife.
not that it's bad.
but.. it really needs a lot a lot of belief and faith.
& determination to remain undefeated.
i don't know whether i have it or not, seriously.
i shall think of 10 WHYs i'm doing it first then.
if i want to do it, i shall give my best.
instead of wasting my time.

during the sharing in spectacular,
somebody said this that hits me.
'How many times do you have to forgive someone?'
the answer, 'As many times as god has forgiven you.'

i really don't know why it is so difficult.
its either i can't understand you, or put myself in your shoes.
or its just ..... =\

2010-01-23T02:30:00.003+08:00

how true is it when you decide to speak the words?

2010-01-20T18:52:00.003+08:00

this week have been very busy. )):
working and working everyday.
the days i'm not working, i would definitely have something else to do.
no more time for me to nua at home.

i got a bad bad feeling.
that my GPA is gonna drop like crazy.
the amount of time i'm stuck on msn having multiple convo is too much. )):
so i better buck up and do my best for UT3 to salvage the situation. ):

i was reading a friend's blog.
& somehow fear came to me.
things will not be the same forever, i know.
but the only thing we can do now is to treasure everything we have?
when it's gone, there's nothing you can do about it. =\

everything is better now.
which makes me happier.
even thou sometimes i still think.
but i guess i'm very determined to do it now.

goodbye, my love.

2010-01-10T12:26:00.004+08:00

went powerhouse last night.

with a stupid bad gastric! ))):
that made me squat in front of the toilet bowl for so long.
wanting to puke. but nothing came out!
totally spoil my mood. roar!

& i was soooo crowded that i was so sian. =\

the only nice thing yesterday.
was drinking with daniel & co.
nice group of people. lol.

i feel helpless.
but i'm trying & trying. =\

somehow, some things are just not meant to be.
we have got to learn to adapt and move on i guess.
this is life.

2010-01-08T14:46:00.003+08:00

fear sets in.

starts to fear if i cant get in IPBMS.
100 vacancies only.
i don't know what will happen to me.
i don't want to end up with nothing.
it feels bleak now.

hates herself for being so lazy in class.
& for always being late. )):

please don't fade.
because it will never ever come back if it does. =\

2010-01-06T11:33:00.001+08:00

yay!
wanqing finally found her FYP teammates.
her useful group of people. smart ass-es. ((:

TADA! =DD

2010-01-04T10:50:00.003+08:00

every year there's a new year resolution.
a bit delayed this year.
due to my hectic holiday-ing schedule. HAHA.

2009 has been a relatively good year.
with alot of ups and downs.
& that it has been a rather out of track year.
very distracted from what i'm supposed to do uh.
but happier i guess.
after learning to live in acceptance. lol.

this year shall be a good good year hopefully.

first thing, this is the last year of my poly life.
& i must make good use of it.
to fulfill my 8 more As so as to be able to obtain my best diploma cert?
i know i can do it but..
i really hope i can pull myself up to do that ah. LOL.
laziness pleasseee don't sneak in. =\

& i want to see a change in me.
physically and mentally.

perhaps this time i want to believe in things that i see.
& to stay immune to negative things.
the past has to go.
no matter what.

2010-01-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

bangkok with darling and her family has been real awesome!
with the shopping! it was sooo cheap!
you don't even have to think about it to buy something. lol.
i didn't get to taste really fantastic thai food, sadly.
it was the first time i'm on a budget airline.
it shocked me when the lights on the plane suddenly blinked.
electric shock!? lol.
retarded things we did.
funny experience. but not too bad. haha.

i had my share of enjoyment.
especially the three of us camwhoring in our super big hotel room. haha.
we were so thrilled by the bathrobe. & we started taking photos with it. lol.
with our shades and nerd specs as well.
crazy women indeed. lol.

& school started again. )):

i can't wait for school holidays to come!
& go to my world of shopping again! HAHA. :D

2009-12-28T00:51:00.001+08:00

i'm so depressed just by looking into the mirror.
super bao! )):

just weigh. && level of fats same.
but i got 3 kg more of water retention. damn it!
i seriously need to go jogging.
no more bao! ))):

2009-12-27T02:17:00.001+08:00

finally back from my europe trip yesterday! (:
had alot of fun there.
the place was god damn nice. it was snowinggg! :D
& shopping was awesome.
i felt guilty for spending so much of my parents money to shop. =\
but very happy thou. LOL.

i definitely want to be back there again! it's a MUST!

right after i came back,
went to club! haha.
it was a good night.
one of the few times i'm completely sober. lol.

i think i got the answer that i wanted despite struggling for very long.
it's just that i've yet to disclose it to you. =\\

accepted the fact.
decided.
perhaps everything should start anew.
let me forget everything that happened.
& live the life that gives me greater joy.

2009-12-13T15:54:00.002+08:00

woohoooooo
i'm flying to PARIS in another 6 hours! (:
BYE BYE!
will be back on the 26th!

i got this feeling.
that if i still choose to think soooo much.
i will not come to a decision even after i come back. =\\

this crazy girl here cannot stop thinking
about 101 possibilities instead of following her own feeling.

2009-12-09T00:09:00.002+08:00

something is amiss i guess.
somehow i can't figure it out what is it.
but, would you choose to ignore everything and trust what your heart tells you to?
or act rationally and think throughly?

2009-12-07T13:04:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME x2
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WQ
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

woke up in the morning to go all the way to clementi.
for work.
& then met enning.
we went plaza sing for lunch.
& watched couples retreat. funny movie. LOL.

walked around in town.
looked for jane darling.

& had buffet dinner at M hotel!
not too bad! the durian puree was niceee! (:

off to timbre.
darling was there already.
with the cake and balloons. haha.
thanks darling!

all phones died. forgotten about my camera
so no photos. )):
but i enjoyed the day still. (:

thanks ah neo too! =D

thanks for all the birthday wishes by any means of technology. haha.
for all who spend my birthday with me.
i feel so loved by my dear friends. (:

& darling.
who never fail to send me super long texts
that make me very touched. haha.
I LOVE YOU, MILLIONS!
my lifetime girlfriend! <3

2009-12-06T12:45:00.001+08:00

whole week was fab. (:

went for birthday celebration on wed after school.
with yiling and jolene! (:
decided to go eat sakura in town but closed down! LOL!
ended up eating sakae.
& starbucks.
slacking, eating my nice little chocolate cake with a stirrer poke on top of the cake (because got no candles) haha.
and mocha frappe! hehe.
but still, good day. =D

went town for awhile on thursday with uncle NEO & cy.
tcc-ed.
& met alli.
chatted til 1plus before she decided to go home. HAHA.

friday was niceee!
went geylang for dinner!
had a good time eating! hahaha.
3 rounds of food.
porridge, dim sum and durian ($40 for that one durian! =.=) but nice! haha.
we all survived of eating too full. LOL!
went chill out place as usual.
sang with boon yang with our broken voices. lol.
played pool and finger guessing games.
& home sweet home.

clubbed on saturday!
but went back at 1 plus. duhh! =.=
my fault! act smart! LOL.

attended wedding dinner today.

& end of my week. (:

2009-11-29T23:06:00.005+08:00

another happy day spent. LOL.
went to work.
end up i went bugis junction to walk around.
while waiting for cecilia.
i forgot my tools when i go to work.
no charts, no measuring tape, no camera.
how stupid! =.=""

went for ELITE DINNER!
we went to the top of UOB plaza.
the sichuan dou hua restuarant.
good food! HAHA.
loved the desserts! awesome.
15 of us ate like nobody's business. =\\
woah! i want to qualify again!
& i feel like i got a second mummy today.
my motherly mentor. lol.

i was suddenly reminded of why i wanted to work so hard initially.
& i felt motivated to be back to work again.
yes! i'm going to work hard!

oh ya ya.
i've been wanting to post this. but i forgot.
one fine day. i ask enning to teach me how to draw the 4D thingy.
& we decided to try buying for fun.
first time - miss by one digit.
buy again!
second time - we won consolation prize! LOL. even thou, the money is so freaking little.
but quite heng ah. HAHAHA.
next time go buy for fun again. haha.

Life is best lived by being bold and daring.
People tend to grow fearful when they taste failure, face a daunting challenge in life.
Yet that is precisely the time to become even bolder.
Those who are victors at heart are the greatest of all champions.

2009-11-28T01:24:00.000+08:00

tired but fulfilling day today.
haha.

woke up at 8 in the morning for pp assessment.
& the best thing was the assessment was only abt 10 mins.
&& i didn't have to present.
just answer all the questions the assessors ask.
about 10 ques or less?
that's it. haha.

met enning for breakfast at northpoint.
& went home.

went harbourfront to meet guang ming after that.
youth centre! haha.
my first time there. LOL.
& we practiced our dance with the rest of the group.
for about 3 hours. before institute meeting starts.

it was fun!
but scary? lol.
luckily, we finished performing before mr neo came. HAHA.
wasted trip for somebody. hehe.

i was sooo hungry that i didnt even have the energy to walk or talk. lol.
went for supper after that.
with darling! & enning & co. (:
i enjoyed the supper thou. haha.
despite being suan all the time by some idiot ah. lol.

decided to work tomoro.
like finally! LOL.
'i'm sooo excited to work tmr.' YA RIGHT. lol.

what we fear are bad choices frequently turn out for the best,
because our hidden aspirations know better where we are going than our rational minds.

maybe i should just stop thinking too much! =\

2009-11-24T19:17:00.005+08:00

i see this webpage filled with dust soon already.
too lazy to blog. lol.

okay. updates updates!
school as usual.
but i realised i ponned school for freaking 5 days already!
oh man.
& i'm still gonna pon on the 7th and 13th december. =\\
when did i become the pon queen already??!

&& the amount of days i'm not working is equals to how long i haven't been blogging.
how bad is that.
practically not working for the whole mth again!
damn!
nua-ing seems to be a better hobby recently.
LWQ! you better go back to work!
chiong World Team! (:

celebrated mr NEO ENNING's birthday last week!
ponned 2 days of school because of that. LOL.
i feel bad for not making it a great day. =\
but still, hope you had your share of fun eh! (:

we had dinner at kushin bo.
a japanese buffet restuarant.
they have a lot of varieties to choose from.
which is not too bad. even though jolene told me it sucks. lol.

slacked at vivo before heading to powerhouse.
because it's too early. haha.
i decided to take some pictures since i haven't been doing so for a long time.
& i realise taking pictures hiding behind him is so much nicer.
which i don't know why. (& jolene gave me a damn cute reason for that. lol.)
& we ended up taking alot of pictures! wahahaha.

i've had a lot of advices recently.
& i guess it really affects me, abit? lol.

yes? no?
i really don't know.
i still need more time?
i don't like the way it is.

move on? yes. i think i should.
only choice. only way.
but what is holding me back?
i don't understand.

i appreciated every single thing you've done.
& for always being there.
when i needed companion or a listening ear.
when i needed help.
for taking care of me.
your love really humbles me.
sometimes, i don't think i deserve so much.

2009-11-08T20:02:00.003+08:00

wanqing is feeling damn guilty for not working for the whole oct mth.
today is the first day she is back to work.
but only worked for 4 hours. haha.
she promise to work more diligently.

i need god damn lots of moneyyyy! :((
for my paris and bangkok trip in dec.
& my birthday!
won't be in singapore for christmas and new year. HEHE.
& i'm so excited! =D

went pubbing last night.
not a bad experience.
at least i can get to sing uh. HAHA.
haven't been singing for sooo long already.
somehow, i don't really like clubbing anymore.

You step outside and hear bells ringing
They make it so hard

2009-11-03T00:41:00.003+08:00

yayayayayayayay!
status changed!
SUPERVISOR! =D
finally finally!
i dont have to be sooooo stress at the end of the month anymore!
stress until .... :(

had a relatively happy day today (:
hehe.

i wish i wish.
i really hope i can.

things have become so unbelievable!
that i doubt whether this is real. lol.

2009-10-31T12:33:00.006+08:00

wanqing is extremely grateful for all the help given. (:
thank you very very much!
if it wasn't for you people,
i would never ever make it there.

i came to understand that money is not everything.
there's a lot more to come in life.

i'm wondering.
would you choose someone who loves you alot or someone you love alot?
hmmm..

take good care of others and you will be well taken care of.

2009-10-30T20:27:00.002+08:00

2 good things happened yesterday.

first thing. whole family went out to eat together. (which is very very rare)
we went yum cha for lunch. (:
hehehe.

second thing. i got a 500vp order.
which saved me from chiong-ing $1000 less.
& it helped me to be closer to qualifying for supervisor this mth! (:
which initially i thought was not possible anymore.

if nothing goes wrong.
i should be able to qualify.
HOPEFULLY! =\
i don't want to redo 5000vp again! ):

&& i'm going to france, switzerland and italy this december!
HEHEHEHE.
buy bagggg! :DD
gucci? LV? or burberry?

i'm so sad i can't travel with darling :((
because of the timing.
damn UTs! :(

2009-10-27T00:10:00.002+08:00

when i don't get a solution to my problems.
i'm very very vexed.

just don't put negative things in me anymore.

i need a goddamn good solution!
rahhhh. :((

2009-10-26T01:36:00.005+08:00

dinner at marina square after STS yest.
& went power house.
original plan was to go eski bar.
i said i wanted to find a place to chill. not club. lol.
but i dunno how come we ended up in power house after a phone call ah. LOL.

today is the first day ever since dunno when.
i had a whole full day to myself.
no work. no school. nothing. (:

meet up with allison!
woah! haven't seen her for ages.
ever since i left YJ? more than 2 years? HAHA.
she keep telling me 'i haven't seen you for very long already'
for more than 6 times. lol.
& we agreed to club together on our birthday! HEHEHE.

this woman is going monash uni next year! wahahaha.
so happy!
i was quite worried about getting discriminated there or something.
which i have heard of.
but i will have somebody there when i go there one year later.
& we are coming back to singapore at the same time! hehehehe.
she brightened up my day. :D

jac and ginny are going to be at melborne too!
cooool!
i'm not going to be alone! hehe.

& i'm definitely going there to build my business.
i can't wait to graduate man! (:

2009-10-24T01:48:00.003+08:00

it feels better when you know somebody is with you.
chiong-ing with you.
you are not alone.
fretting alone.
thinking how on earth are you going to earn 2k in a week. =\

thanks! (:

2009-10-23T00:48:00.003+08:00

wanqing is coming back to compete for AAAA!

slacked for too long already.
no more B and Cs man.
i want to see A for daily grades and UT! ((:

& i got to start doing up my poster for pp man!
UTs comingggg. omg.
mugging soon.

i'm in an extremely good mood today.
dunno why.
perhaps its because i woke up early
& i walked to school instead of cabbing.
a good start makes my day? HAHA.

havent been working thesedays. =\\
guan yin ma, please bless me with a SB! :(

2009-10-19T00:07:00.003+08:00

the right person would always come back to you

so nevermind.
it's okay.
no worries or disappointments.
just SMILE!

2009-10-16T23:46:00.002+08:00

updates for the week!

went grand copthorne waterfront hotel for dinner on mon.
the food was awesome! (:

took some pictures.
will upload some day when i sort them out. haha.

did 3 follow ups on tues.

went out with W35G cliques on wed to celebrate FJ and WC's birthday.
enjoyed the dinner at aston! HEHE.
did some mini shopping after that.
& home sweet home.

again, photos will be uploaded soonnn!

worked on thurs.
watched soronity row today.
i think i shouldn't watch this kind of movie.
scaryyyy! =\\\

mentality drained.
i need a recharge! :((

2009-10-15T10:57:00.001+08:00

when things change,
they are never going to be the same
no matter how hard you try.
never ever.

2009-10-11T02:21:00.002+08:00

wanqing is learning to be more independent.
force myself to work when i realise that i had to work alone today.
& i'm glad i didn't stand there and stare at the crowd.
great improvement. (:
because i always do if i get to work alone.

it's just interesting by all the types of people you meet. LOL.

sometimes, i just don't understand.
can't i just don't think about it!?
rahhhhhh!

2009-10-09T23:28:00.004+08:00

wanqing cannot feel down man!
feel down = grades down = morale down
everything goes down too.
i guess that's the reason for my severe mood swings.
when it's good, everything turns out to be good.
when it's bad, it goes right to the bottom. =\

NO NO.

i'm trying to be stronger.

just SMILE SMILE SMILE!

don't care. don't bother.

it sucks to feel whatever you believe in, turns out to be an illusion.

i heard this from 500 days of summer i watched today

that struck me.

2009-10-08T21:23:00.002+08:00

had steamboat for supper last night to celebrate Jeff's birthday.
last minute decision.
sinful man.
but it was good! HAHA.
we loved the mantou so much.
it's gone immediately after it reaches the table. LOL.

something is really wrong with my mind, seriously.
totally out of control.
kinda unusual.
why why why? hmm.

i decided not to work today.
& i was so happy. HAHA.
not that i don't like to work.
but i'm overworked!
i need a good break resting at home. (:

i have 6 packs of different fruit juice
and 1 big tub of yoghurt resting in my fridge! HEHE.
very good!
then i will be on track to diet.
no more snacking.
Day 1 starts TODAY!
2 more mths!

I MUST LOOK AWESOME ON MY BIRTHDAY!
this shall be my motivation. (:

please remind me if i forget okay!
don't let me eat anymore!

2009-10-07T00:21:00.006+08:00

PP finally approved! (:
luckily i don't have to rework. hehe.

was talking to sinyee.

i told her this.

you can fail, but you cannot be defeated by failure.
sinyee, jia you! (:

Life must be understood backwards but it must be lived forward.

things are just as simple as that.

it never was complicated, i know.

but just a silly story that marks her life. :D

2009-10-05T10:53:00.002+08:00

school started today.
the daily routine of waking up at 7.30 again. sign.
walked into class & i saw 6 familiar faces.
which is at least a little better.

i'm usually quiet on the first day of school.
but not today.
in a way, its good! (:

aren't suppose to go clubbing on sat
should have went for bbq instead
but went because i didnt want to upset jane
& now i'm with alot of blue black again. :(
i dunno why i have the tendency to get hurt so easily thesedays.
rahh. =\

wanqing is so happy to see peishan on sat. (:
see you soon again next week! (:

2009-10-02T23:46:00.004+08:00

i'm so freaking sick that i have to have another 'everyday work' for oct.
another 2500vp. =\\\
i've never in my life feel so stress before.
to the stage that it makes me cry. LOL.
but i CANNOT give up!
i guess, it will be good for me.
i know every single thing i'm going through in herbalife
will mold me into a more positive and stronger person.

school is starting in 2 days time :(((
having to adapt all over again is kind of irritating.
i need a GPA of 4 this sem.
gotta work hard again. =\

have been snacking alot thesedays man!
or supper almost everyday.
supposed to be losing weight.
not maintaining. :(

wanqing CANNOT go clubbing until ezema recover.
so, i shall not go with jane darling to rebel tmr. (:

2009-09-30T00:08:00.003+08:00

wanqing really cried badly today.
dunno ever since when she hasn't shed any tears til now.
emotional breakdown.

i wasnt able to hold back my tears even thou i tried.
when i wanted it so badly enough.
i had to do it all by myself.
with alot of objections coming from my mum.

but i'm really very very touched by my herbalife team.
those who stood by me and supported me.
especially jeff and elson.
thank you very very much!

not forgetting enning.
when i told him i need money now.
he transferred it to me straightaway.
thanks!

and jolene who ALWAYS lend me her listening ear.
i don't even have to approach her
before she comes asking.
love you, girl! hehe. (:

its not going to be an easy road i know.
good things never come easy.
but i will perservere!

with them, i will stay very strong.
no matter what.
LWQ! JIA YOU!

my tears tells me how badly i want it.
i'm willing to put in all my effort just to succeed.
only then people around me can live a good life.

successful people never give up!

2009-09-29T22:47:00.004+08:00

i've got a heavy heart
because i think and care too much.
perhaps i shouldn't care.
& do it my own way.

SMILE, SMILE, SMILE!
don't let negative things sink in, please.

i think of you alot today. :(

2009-09-27T00:53:00.002+08:00

STS training was fabulous today!
learnt alot from the training
that left me pondering about a lot of things.

how many times have i tried to find tons of excuses for myself?
i think i cannot achieve it
because of reason A, B, C, D and blah blah
everything comes with a BUT!
& where did i go in the end? nowhere!
CHANGE, CHANGE CHANGE!

If you want something to change, you have to change!

hardest thing we need to do is to get over our self imposed limitations.

Next 90 days, i'm going to work very hard.
let's see what miracles we can achieve! (:

2009-09-20T21:33:00.003+08:00

whole week was pretty busy.
working working and working.
i only have time at night. :(

went cycling with jane on thursday after work.
& now my face is swollen with a blue black! :((
thanks to my clumsiness.

went st james with darling and co to celebrate darling's birthday last night.
along with enning and co too.
i wasn't really in the mood.
all i was thinking was 'i want to go home'. =\\
clubbing is really not appealing to me already, i guess.

but i hope darling enjoyed herself. (:
will celebrate with her again with jane next week! HEHE.

wanqing is very happy that she is gonna have friends to work with her very soon!
yay!
let's work hand in hand.
survive all the hardship and rejections
and move together.
& have a better life in future!
everything will be worthwhile. ((:

2009-09-17T00:47:00.005+08:00

wanqing love herbalife so much.
HEHEHE.
going to work with a big big smile on her face everyday.
herbalife pays you just by talking
how easy can that be.

i can't wait for people to come join me in this wonderful business.
a place where you find genuine friends, sense of satisfaction & amazing payouts.

my heart breaks everytime i think of you.
i wonder the rational behind your actions.
i wonder if you are unhappy.
hopefully not.
even thou i can't be there for you.

i hope everything is good for you.

i just wish for you to be happy.

keep that smile on your face

the smile that used to attract you to me.

2009-09-16T00:48:00.002+08:00

wanqing is totally worn out.
work until my face can no longer put on a smile
because i'm too tired.
elson, jeff and june have to constantly make me smile. LOL.

at times, i really feel very discouraged and disappointed.
thanks to them that i never fail to give up trying.
together, we shall work hand in hand towards our dream.
president team! (:

i don't know what do i have to do with you.
either ways i don't feel good abt it. =\

2009-09-11T00:29:00.001+08:00

despite feeling tired.
i'm happy. (:
i like the excitement and fun at work. hehe.
1 more new customer!
i'm gonna get at least one everyday.
& i'm going to be rich very soon just by having reorders. LOL!
earn 60 bucks in 10 mins is seriously damn cool man.

let it go.
if it comes back, its yours.
if it didn't, it never was.
i believe in fate.